run through my town, scream til i faint...

ever have those days that feel like they didn't happen?
things were so repetitive that it all just felt like a blur.

slept in. felt so nice.
did some safety and sanitation homework.
i should be doing more, buuuuuuuuuuut i don't feel like it.
made myself breakfast,
sped to school because i lost track of time and was late, haha.
got to class, made a cake,
got paired up with the crazy Jamaican lady that doesn't speak english. AGAIN.
so i basically did everything by myself.
next week is my last week of school. and then we just have cleanup days.
i'm SO excited. i need a major break from school.
summer will be so nice :)

this is a crappy picture of what i made today :)


anyway.
thursday is owen beverly at the village tavern again.
i'm excited to see himm.

sunday is veara with amanda and chris.
annnnnnnnnnd it kinda looks like me and chris will be doing gang vocals for their whole set.
kerry kinda split.

is it bad if i get excited about things too quickly? yes.
i had fun last night.

anyway. i'm tired.
bedtime early tonight? i think so.

things have changed.
it's better. i had a really good cry about stuff in my life, and i have never felt better. as emokid as that sounds, it felt like it lifted a bunch of emotion that i had been hiding.


i had a lot of fun last night.
went to a riverdogs game with matt, ken, and julie.
then hung out with matt a little bit after.
i had a great time :)

school today. boo.

phew this place is dusty!

okay so this week has been crazy.
for a month me and dee have been planning to go see veara.
first show got cancelled. second show just got cancelled today. wtf.


this is what tuesday might consist of...


to see




haha
it was going to be a surprise, buuuut things were getting all everywhere
so i just called him and was like "so this is what's going on" haha
i'm still super excited. like i really want this to happen.
and if it doesn't i'll see him on the 28th.
buuuut i don't want to have to wait that long <3

that's all that's really on my mind.
oh, and i don't want a tornado to hit my house.
...and i don't want to work tomorrow.
maybe starbucks will get swept up in a tornado overnight and i won't have to go in. lolz

Classic White Icing.
did not work out so well. way too sugary and i wasn't really happy with how my cupcakes turned out :( i'll try something tomorrow maybe. i don't really know what to do with all these cupcakes i keep making haha.


Au Natural
so i just washed my hair with this curling shampoo i used to use, i didn't brush my hair and i'm letting it dry natural. it's freaking me out cause i forgot how curly my hair is when i let it go. haha.






so i'm picking up jenn's shift tomorrow at the bux.
thank goodness, i'm going crazy in this house. i haven't worked in like 4 days haha.
meanwhile i don't have to work christmas eve! yay! happy times lol.
and well i don't have to work christmas either cause we're closed! yaay.
but the day after christmas i'm opening at 5. woohoo.

all in all i'm happy :)


oh, and here's the link to my new cupcake/baking something i don't know what to call it blog :)
cupcake.love

life is complicated at the moment,
but i'm trying not to really think about that.

tonight my mom gave me a christmas present <3
it's this kickbutt cookbook that has anything and everything you could ever think about cooking in it. she's so amazing, she was like "i hated seeing you try to find recipes online and then them turn out horrible because they weren't backed by anyone." my mom is pretty awesome. so tomorrow i'll be testing out some of the recipes and make some cupcakes. my family is probably pretty sick of cupcakes by now, so if anyone wants some, let me know haha.

i think i'm going to start a baking blog, and everytime i make something, i'll take pictures and then write something about it, just to kind of keep a log for myself about how i thought about it, what was wrong with it, what was good about it, etc. so whenever that happens i'll put up a link for the 2 people that read this. haha.

for the longest time, i haven't felt that zsa zsa zsu feeling in my stomach. for awhile there, i was losing faith in the fact that i'd feel it again for a really long time. the last time i felt it, it basically ended in disaster. i've been avoiding it lately because i was afraid of how it was going to end again. but i really thought about it, and if i want happiness at all, i have to put myself out there. so i started talking to a few people, just to get back into the real swing of things. and then, he got hired. my manager hired a few new people at work, and he's one of them. the second he walked in, i got the feeling. it really scared me at first, but it's so nice to feel it again. we've been working a lot together lately, and we're going out tomorrow night. you know how when you meet someone, sometimes it just instantly clicks? you can sit and talk to them and there's this instant electricity and it's just refreshing. that's how it feels. i haven't met that kind of person very often. but when i do, they turn out being someone really important in my life. me and chris were like that right away. two years later, he's still my best friend. even if this turns out to be just a friendship, it will be well worth it. i'm really pulling for more though :)

meanwhile i'm SO done with school. it's just so ridiculous. tons and tons of projects on top of each other and all over the place. i was so busy doing other projects that i forgot to do one of my magazine reviews. yay. that'll bring down my grade quite a bit. we have 5 classes left though, and i'm so read for this. you have no idea.

and work just texted me to ask if i could come in at 7. i really don't want to, simply because of the fact that i have to work at 8 tomorrow morning. no thank you.

seriously. david texted me today at work. all like "i miss you more than you know"
blah blah blah.
and then called me tonight after i was already home and not going back out.
i'm just so sick of this bullshit.
i think he like sets an alarm on his phone for every couple of weeks like,
"hey, it's time to text sam and then not call her again for 3 weeks to screw with her head"
wtf mate. i hate this.


more importantly, starbucks is all christmas-ified. it looks great though.
everything is red. we even get to wear these red holiday tshirts every friday, it's fun.


saw american gangster last night with christopher.
it was a really good movie.
just when you think denzel washington isn't a badass anymore...
he goes and does this movie. freakin amazing.
freakin long too. seriously started at 7:20 and it didn't get out til 10. man.



remember those nice guys that hardly exist anymore?
yea i met one.
he's sort of taken. son of a-
i hate on life when it comes to relationships
or as i like to call it, a "relation-shit."
dane cook rules my life lately.
the other day, some dude was on the today show, talking about how he got bit by a shark,
and then a pod of dolphins (wtf?) came and surrounded him to scare away the shark.
the shark swam away, and the guy got away.
wait.... WHAT? like, "so i punched the shark, aaaaand he let me go."
and then there was this huge accident outside my neighborhood,
and people were seriously like coming out of bushes and crap. it was hilarious.

anyway.
work tomorrow.
i could use some serious cheering up.

do you ever feel like everyday is just a carbon copy of the one before?
i feel like that's been happening over and over lately, and i absolutely hate it.
i really just want something new to happen to me.
something exciting, that will change everything.

i know that i hold it all in my own hands,
but i just feel like i don't have time for anything anymore.

me and the bestfriend finally hung out over the weekend and it was a blast.
i miss that more than you will ever know.



so my dad apologized today.
thank goodness. today was crap because of last night.
i went to the shop after school to get them to put on my new tire,
and he was still in a horrible mood about it and like snatched my keys out of my hand.
and then tonight we were upstairs alone and he apologized.
i knew he would, i just didn't know when.

anyway.
i really don't want to go to class tomorrow.
save me?

dear forever the sickest kids,
your demos make me so happy.

this was the most interesting weekend i've had in a really long time.
yesterday i worked with seriously, ALL my favorite people at work.
it was great. either they worked, or came in and visited. amazing.

then me and chris went to underoath. it was interesting.
i lost chris during the first 10 minutes of maylene. yeah.
so i spent the entire show alone.
annnd one of the guitarists had a glory of this tshirt on.
an OLD glory of this tshirt. like one that i got years ago at the legion.
i wanted to find him and hug him, but he was nowhere to be found.
(off topic, but it made me happy. the people that bought the music farm out
CLEANED IT! yay for them. they cleaned and painted the bathrooms,
put down carpet, and decorated. it's pretty now.)

so after i lost chris, i wandered around and watched the show from the back.
saw a ton of random people. old friends, new friends, and even someone that i haven't
seen in about 2 years. it was so great to see him again :)

found chris after underoath played. was really bummed that we didn't get to
watch them together. we started to drive home,
and his friend's boyfriend called him up talking crap like
"why you talkin to my girlfriend man?!" being all lame. it was kinda funny.
screamed and sang along really really loud to he is legend and ftsk on the interstate.
got stuck in a little traffic from the fair,
and i got home around 1:30. yay.

slept in this morning, we made blueberry pancakes. yum.
hung out for awhile, then went over to my grandparents house to see my aunt/uncle
then i had to go to the starbucks holiday meeting.
on the way home, i got a flat tire. YEAHH!! i love my life.
and of course, since it happened to me, it had to happen so randomly.
i hit a pothole that i hit everyday, and didn't feel it happen.
and some stupid stock car that had the loudest exhaust EVER was right next to me,
so i didn't hear it. i didn't know what was going on until i felt my car vibrating.
so i pulled into sonic to make sure that my car was okay?
when i opened the door i just smelled rubber and saw that my tire was torn apart.
yay. i called my mom and she told my dad, and he came to put on my spare.
of course he was mad at me. thanks for the compassion. i could have run off the road.
i'm so glad that you have a short temper, thanks dad.

to make my evening better, an old friend probably hates me.
i saw him last night at the show randomly, we've been planning to hang out
today for like a week now. i told him to call me at 7:45 so i'd be out of my meeting and we'd hang out. well apparently he didn't change his clock like everyone else, so he called me at 6:45 when i was still in the starbucks meeting. i couldn't answer. annnd he called me like 4 times. i felt really bad. so when i finally got out of the meeting an hour later as planned, i tried to call him back and his mom answered and said he wasn't home. yay. i feel like such a good person.

and kathrine just called me from fall out boy. yay for more depression kicking in.

how the heck was YOUR weekend?

circa survive is owning my speakers at the moment. much love.

went to the fair tonight with dee and amanda.
it was really fun.
except for the fact that now i have a massive
stomach ache from all the fair food.

i really don't want to go to class tomorrow.
i'm seriously so sick of all that crap.
if i have to write another design brief for something
that i'm not actually making
i'm going to shoot my computer in the face.

in other news,
i have a large large feeling that boston will win again tonight,
and that the world series will be over lol.

anyway.
i'm kind of excited for something to happen.